I was so worried that I walked for about 3 to 4 hours yesterday without even looking at a map. I just thought about this and that, but honestly, I think 80% of it was denial of reality. I've forgotten most of it now that a day has passed, but if I were to record what still stands out: ——————————————————————- 1. Just because the intention is good doesn't mean the result will be good. Honestly, while there are many good people in the Telegram rooms, I also see just as many people who don't fit in with me... People I can roughly guess, KOLs advertising VUI shortly after setting up their VUI rugs, bot manipulation that is obvious to the eye, projects that are obviously weird to anyone... And so on. I have a strange sense of pride, so even though I'm a small streamer, I've received advertising offers multiple times, including on Twitter, but I've never accepted a single one. I put a lot of thought into what I post, but it's not just once or twice that the results differ so much from what I expected. Let's imagine parents from a poor family having a child like Elon Musk. These parents make him do manual labor out of a sincere desire for his success. They gaslight him, telling him that he'll earn 200,000 won per job once he builds up his skills, implying that a person needs technical skills. Thoughts like that. Even if the intention is good, it doesn't necessarily lead to good results. I also think about what I should do. 2. I am an idiot. Whenever I try to write in a Telegram group, I get this strange sense of superiority. I want to pretend to know about fields and people I barely understand, and I want to act smart. Even though I try my best to restrain myself, these thoughts creep in unconsciously. And becoming a clown isn't easy. Some strange people look down on me, and others make fun of me. After trying out a Telegram channel, I realized even more how difficult this is... Na-Ham, Maesil-Nam, Gong-Nam, Jeungmorning Hyungnim, etc.